Writing Challenge: Day 8? A Moment of Satisfaction

I would first like to point out the vagueness of this prompt.

A moment I felt satisfied with my life? My whole life? Satisfied in a moment with my whole life?

I had a bacon wrapped hot dog once. I will never forget how satisfying that was to my life, specifically my belly. It was my 25th birthday at about 2 pm.

Right now, I’m listening to Billie Holiday and I’d say I’m pretty satisfied. I just posted a poem on Instagram (shameless plug – follow me @preciousjalisa) and my phone is lighting up with notifications. Good ole double taps.

When I am driving in my car, I usually open the sunroof and am rather satisfied with the Vitamin D that I absorb and the fresh air that I inhale. Also, it automatically transforms into a moonroof at night. This is the only reason I am satisfied with paying an arm and a big toe for this car and the insurance… rather than cringing when those two payments come flying out of my bank account.

I am quite satisfied when I am having margaritas and fish tacos on Tuesdays and talking with my favorite bartender. He is quite the transparent asshole. He has no reason to be reading this blog, hopefully my “on the house” margaritas are still there next Tuesday.

Connecting with people satisfies me. But also connecting with myself.

Today, I had a light bulb moment full of creativity. That satisfied me to my bones. I just hope to connect and inspire people… I hope my life is satisfyingly full of that.

 

 

 

Precious Jalisa

Writing Challenge: Day 6 – 30 (mildly) Interesting Facts about Me

1. Mangoes turn me on. Cutting into a mango. Eating a mango. It’s all really erotic for me. I found this out about an hour ago, so it was fresh on my mind.
2. I think I am what you would call a nudist. I was not naked while eating that mango mentioned in number 1. That would be just….. weird.
3. My first creative love is poetry.
4. I have a very hard time verbally communicating my thoughts and feelings.
5. I love jazz.
6. I probably love wine more than I like most people.
7. I used to date someone that had four kids. Step-mom totally fits me.
8. The beach is my happy place.
9. Once, I forgot where I parked downtown. I was alone, wasted and scared, so I paid a homeless guy $100 to find my car. He found it in what seemed like 30 seconds.
10. I’m always singing in my head. Or out loud if you’re lucky lol.
11. I’ll break out in dance anywhere and at any time. Don’t tempt me. My life is a Broadway musical.
12. My memory SUCKS.
13. I don’t like dogs. Or cats. I’m really just not an animal person. Some people would group me with Lucifer for saying that.
14. I can’t sleep without my fan.
15. Trained Phlebotomist. Yes, I can draw your blood, I would rather not.
16. I have this irrational fear of killing someone by accident one day. (Hence, why I gave up phlebotomy.
17. I was in a car accident on 11/16/16. I was conscious for the whole thing… but still had to check to see if I was dead when I crawled out of the car.
18. I am eerily calm when a tragedy happens.
19. My wrist tattoo is an ode to my emotional instability… I didn’t realize until I was mid-tattoo session that this could also be interpreted  as me being bi-polar as fuck.
20. I take that Black Girl Magic thing very seriously… For real, I think I magically glow with the power of cocoa butter and coconut oil.
21. I’ve had this reoccurring sex dream about Prince since I was in middle school. I haven’t had this dream since he died last year.
22. I believe in another lifetime, I was a cat that loved chicken nuggets.
23. I’d like to go on a really long road trip.
24. I always reevaluate my life on my birthday, instead of New Year’s Eve.
25. I hate small talk. That’s probably why I don’t talk much to people I don’t know.
26. I am an “extroverted introvert”… it’s exhausting.
27. I am quite possibly obsessed with this lady named Maggie. She does my pedicures. It’s a mutually beneficial relationship. Probably the only one I have right now. Especially when she rubs… Okay… moving on.
28. I put lotion on my hands all day long.
29. I need to have a 90’s themed birthday party… or my life will not be complete. (Fresh Prince – 90’s, not grunge 90’s.)
30. I’m not as smart as people assume I am… *side eye*

Birthday Reflection: Ready for Year 27

Twenty-six was challenging and my goodness, there were some hard days but I am so proud that I managed to fall in love with myself, find a deeper connection with God and meet some amazing people that have changed my life forever.

If there’s anything I’ve learned this last year, it’s to trust God. Even with the smallest things… stop worrying and just trust God.

I feel like I should include my angels in this post, seriously, I don’t know where I would be without them.

Sara – I feel like we were instantly friends… dancing in a nightclub in Denver while high on life. Literally, I admire this woman’s carefree spirit. She is who she is. Accept it or don’t. She reminded me of who I am… when I needed to hear it the most. I was so stuck and she pulled me out. I can still see her sitting in front of my desk telling me that I deserve to be happy, even if that meant I had to be alone and start over. She quite literally helped me start over, helping me heal with no judgement, without forcing her own agenda onto me, and she will always have a special place in my heart.

My Mom – She must stay praying for me. Somehow, my guardian angels never leave my side. We may never agree on most things lol. But I know when I need something, when I need to reset, when I need a talking to, when I need someone to be absolutely real with me… she is it.

Gina – I would need a whole post for this one. She is laughter. She is love. She is kindness. She is my spiritual advisor. I hope to be as giving as her. I truly feel loved in her presence. She gets the power of friendship and sisterhood, having a friend that will willingly, consistently contribute to my own personal growth is a friend worth keeping for life and it truly is a blessing from God.

My Ex-Boyfriend – I’m calling him one of my angels because not all angels are pretty, not all angels are soft, whispering words of encouragement. Some angels yield swords and are made for war. I learned a lot about myself and I will forever be grateful for a few things from him. He made me curious about what a relationship with God looked like for me. He made me want to be a mother, that was something that I thought would never be in the cards for me. Most of all, I learned that I could give someone all of me with pure, unconditional love with the sweetest intentions… I can only imagine how much love the right man will receive from me. It makes me smile though.

Catherine – Sometimes… people will come into your life for the shortest amount of time and change it forever. I am forever grateful for every tear she let me shed, every piece of advice, and every time she told me I will be okay. A hug from Cat will cure anything.

For the first time in my life, I love myself, I accept myself, and I’m excited about my journey! So much can happen in a year.

Love,

PJay