I wish I didn’t feel.
I wish I could shrug shit off like Kanye West.
I wish I didn’t lose my train of thought in a stranger’s smile.
Delight in every freckle on someone’s face.
Be intrigued with everyone’s story
Inspired by everything.
I wish I didn’t get distracted by every leaf blowing in the wind,
Every sound that vibrates passed my ears.
I wish my mind was quiet and I could detach
from my own heart… and just rest.
I wish I didn’t love.
I wish I couldn’t love.
I wish I stayed cool as winterfresh gum
Never needing validation or reassurance
Never cracked under the pressure of a lover’s gaze
I wish I would stop changing so I could catch up
pour out some of the emotion of this overflowing cup…
Sometimes I wish I was less than this…
that I was just a breeze dancing over the waves in the middle of the ocean.
Or a laugh escaping into the day that is soon over and forgotten.
Yeah, I wish I could just rest.